Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Here We Go Again

It used to be that every year between September and April, I would get a run of about four flu/cold-type maladies that would last for at least three weeks each. Sometimes I would be sick for about 80% of that time. They incorporated everything: sneezing, coughing, runny nose, congestion, digestive issues--you name it. Because Starbucks never closes and can't really function if one of its scheduled people doesn't show up, I would go to work anyway, feeling terrible and trying not to alarm customers or sneeze into their beverages. (Sometimes I probably tried less hard than others.)

Now, is the new thing cancer every winter?

Last year, during all that cancer diagnosis/surgery/radiation nonsense, I didn't get sick once. I think I might have gotten a cold sometime in March, but it only hung on for about five days. I didn't even get a flu shot.

This year I got a flu shot, because I wasn't planning on getting cancer again and I figured I wouldn't have anything to trade in the colds for. But on Monday morning . . . I discovered another lump. Same side, different location.

I'm hoping it's nothing. Just like I hoped the last one was nothing. But none of the doctors are saying that to me anymore. Nope. Already had this problem once--now they want to see me as soon as possible. I expect my Surgeon (or his nurse practitioner) will call me imminently to set this up.

Meanwhile, if you get into praying at all, would you please pray that this will go away? Completely? I don't want to do this again, and I sense the Valley of the Shadow of Chemo coming into view. Can I just tell you? I'd rather die than have chemo at this point. I'll talk some more about that later. Just for now . . . please pray for me. I've known of--and expected--greater miracles than this.


Craver Vii said...

Sweet friend, yes I totally "get into" praying. So sorry to hear that you are under a threat of harm, but I will pray as you have asked, that this will go away completely. I respond with a lump in my throat, and wish I could send a brotherly hug. I also wish I knew whether to send words of comfort or whether it would be better to silently sit, listening only.

May I encourage you to seek out your elders and be bold enough to ask them to anoint you with oil and pray over you as per James 5?

Sovereign and gracious Lord, would you meet Jenn in her hour of need, and bring her through this moment with your tenderness and lovingkindness, so that she experiences Your peace? Let it please You Lord, to completely eradicate the cancer from her body. Let Jenn have a testimony of your mercy and let this be done to bring You glory and praise, in Jesus' name. Amen

David Madeira said...

Amen, amen, and amen.

Jenn, we love you and are praying.

Anonymous said...

Jenn, I'm sorry you have something "new" to deal with. I will be praying for you. Judy

Judy said...

Jenn I will be praying for you.

Tina said...

I want to get in my car and drive there to pray with you - but since I have never met you in person and I don't even know where you live - I will pray here - just know that I will ask others to pray also - and know that God will take care.
You are not alone.

Anonymous said...

Jenne, my heart hurts for you. Just know that when we are on the mountaintops, it is so easy to feel God's marvelous presence, but when we are in the valleys, we see His Strength becoming our own and His Peace overshadowing our fears and JOY to be held in His arms as we struggle through. Love You and are praying for God's healing touch to your body be it flu or cancer or neither!

L.L. Barkat said...

Just listening. And aching towards God for you.

The Sixes said...

There are lots of pray-ers remembering you here in China. We love you and sure wish we could be there now.